A call, from my sister in tears, came today and I think once again on these thoughts, at the blog Holy Experience. These words really spoke to me and made me realize too that I am not the only one wrestling. Of course, I knew it to be true, but again the lies tell me I am alone.
I have been silent here as I have been wrestling. I fear to write things down when I am at this place. I wrote the author of this blog, just wanting to thank her for her encouragement and trying to ease out some of what I wrestle with. Immediately after the email had been sent I recalled these well known words :
(2 Corinthians 12:9-10)
It is o.k. that I do not have all the answers, that I do wrestle, that I find discouragement on this journey. It is not about me at all. It is about HIM.
I mentioned this quiet place to my sister, telling her that the thoughts and words shared here direct us to a better place - to HIM.
Let all our employment be to know GOD: the more one knows Him,
the more one desires to know Him.
And as knowledge is commonly the measure of love, the deeper and more extensive our knowledge shall be, the greater will be our love:
and if our love of GOD were great we should love Him equally in pains and pleasures.